A love mad heart, The Enrapturing Beloved

In the name of Allah the most Affectionate, most Enrapturing!

A love mad heart, The Enrapturing Beloved

My heart always thirsty to love,
in search of an object to love,
since my adolescence till now
I have searched my beloved.

I wandered here and there,
looking for the that shining face
whose glamour would make me stunned
whose love I could feel in my heart.

I saw many a faces,
I took them for my object
I longed for intimacy with them
in solitary moments to utter few words.

I took them deep into my hearts,
loving them with full my emotional might,
with all honesty of a sincere lover,
with deep emotions of a genuine seeker.

I went closer to probe,
to look for that eternal bliss
I thought I have reached
the source of happiness in my life.

I would write poems with earnest desires,
I would appreciate their charm,
I would seek in them -
the source of happiness and calm

They were like distant stars
giving me light and inspiration,
I would shower my love
for their pleasure and recognition.

As I attempted to get closer,
Oh! what my eyes perceived,
Oh ! the dreadful sight
how ended the light!!!

The stars had no light, no charm
A false vision, a gloomy illusion,
This is not my object
This can not be my love.

The faces turned dark
the shine disappeared,
the love shattered,
my heart nonplussed.

I saw the false dreams,
I sought the false beloveds,
none deserved that madness
none is the object worth loving.

I awoke from the life of dreams,
I saw the Light on the horizon,
I ran towards It,
Who is This most Enrapturing ?

Whose glamour does not decline,
Whose attraction is maddening,
Whose one name is the most Beautiful?
He refuses none His benevolence, the most Merciful?

I went closer to probe,
My eyes dazed, my heart enraptured,
My soul made slave of
His Beauty that shows no let off.

How Beautiful, How enrapturing,
I found all musics of life,
My heart enlivened, my soul enlightened,
My life elevated above the seeking of mean objects.

His love permeates my heart,
His attraction is maddening,
His intimacy does not lead to dismay,
His nearness does not end in gloom.

He is Love of my life;
I made a resolve
Whomever I would love now onwards,
It would be to attain more proximity with Him.

His love will be the guiding light,
His love will be identification mark,
I would love only those
Who reflect that light and bear those marks.

I want to announce to one and all
Of my love and my Beloved,
Who is most Perfect,
Who is most Merciful.

Who does not shun His seekers
Who does not disrespect His lovers,
He is my Creator Lord,
He is my Love, my Beloved.

O! the Lord full of mercy and grace,
make me emulate Thy Prophet and receive the guidance,
So that I might also be loved by Thee,
So that Thou forgives my sins and brings me near to Thee!!!

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With request to remember in duas!
Wassalaam,
Asad.